Should I celebrate or mourn my divorce? Maybe both.

Today is my second anniversary since my divorce. After two years as a “free” woman I still have mixed feelings on this day. I feel like celebrating, but at the same time I mourn on August 4th. I feel a sadness, not because I miss my ex husband, but because it is a reminder of something that died. Today I was not grieving the loss of my former husband, but the loss of what I dreamed my life was going to be.

Since the divorce I have found myself again and learned to appreciate life that I lost while married. I have moved on to a better place in my life. Sometimes it’s hard, very hard to do it all alone. But the hardest things in life are the once worth fighting for, because in the end, they are going to bring us the most joy.

I also celebrated today. I reminded myself that I have so much to be grateful for. I have three amazing kids, a great job, great health, and a warm bed to crawl in at night where I can read as late as I want, without hearing anyone complain about the bright light. So, it’s not all that bad.

Here’s how I celebrated:
• I worked out to stay healthy for my children
• I baked a banana crumble cake (yummy)
• I took an evening walk with my youngest child

Life is wonderful!